Thunderstorm

I can't help but wonder
As I lie upon my bed
Late at night when all is quiet
And the only sound is the
Gentle tapping of the rain
On the window pane
How a person who meant so much
Who you talked to every day
Who was the most beautiful girl in the world
Who was your dearest friend
Who you deeply loved and cared for
Can simply not exist any longer
And when the winds pick up
And the lightning crashes, once, far away
I think of the distance you put between us
Of the pain I felt for so long from awayness
And my current sense of indifference
A feeling I waited for, to stop the pain
But am not sure how to handle now
I wonder how you feel
And when the thunder softly sounds
The rain comes down harder
Maybe you think of me
Maybe you feel the pain too
Just when you think it is quiet
You see lightning just outside the window
So close and the thunder shakes your home
Perhaps you care about me
And feel sorrow when you hear my name
When your friends mention me
When you see me, or things that I gave you
When your sister talks of me
Or maybe you have no feeling
And have done what I am doing now
Blocking out the sad, loneliness
In the process, also the good
But something must block the pain
You must stop caring
The storm reaches the climax
Lightning so close, nearly touchable
That just disappears with no trace
Like the hopes of you and me again
The storm quiets, ending
Just as we must do
But the next storm
I just can't help but wonder